I just think there are a few things about me that you should be aware of. First of all, I don’t have a lot of money. Currently, I don’t have any at all. I’m in the negatives, but I’m trying my absolute hardest to fix that. When I get everything paid off, I’ll make it better and I will support you in every way that I can. You will come before me, always. You should probably know that I cling, sometimes. I may be too much at times, but it’s really only because I love you. When I get afraid or nervous, I’ll come to you first. You should know that I eat too much. So if I gain a few pounds, I hope that you won’t mind and think that I’m fat. I’ll lose them, or at least try to. I’m the worlds biggest nerd… I like The Wizard of Oz, Star Wars, and video games. Not only that, but I listen to Celine Dion. Is that too much? I hope not… I hope that you’ll understand that I have to sleep on the left side of the bed, and I have to cuddle you in order to sleep. I’m not a neat freak, but I’m not a slob. Don’t be mad if I have some clothes on the floor, and a stack of unfinished books beside the bed. I don’t dress all that well, but I try my hardest. I care about my appearance, but jeans and a tshirt is perfectly fine with me. I’ll cancel any appointments I have if it means that I get to be with you. I promise that I’ll always be there if you need someone to cry to. If life gets to be too much, and you need to just scream, then yell at me. I’ll understand, and I won’t ask any questions. If you need your alone time, I’ll give it to you. Other half, I hope you don’t mind that I take baths and not showers, because I think that that takes up more of the hot water. I’m not the greatest cook, either, but I do try. I may burn the chicken sometimes, and the pasta may be under cooked. But hopefully it won’t be too terrible. Sometimes I sleep in until one, but some mornings I’m up at six am. I hope I don’t wake you when I get out of bed. I’ll want people to know that you’re mine. I might get jealous sometimes. I pretend like nothing is wrong when the world is crumbling around me, but only because I don’t want you to worry. I’m not that funny and I’m sarcastic. I spend a lot of my evenings reading or watching a movie. I hope that I’m not too boring for you. I’m not very smart, either, but I try. But no matter what, I promise to love you with everything that I am. I may not be a lot of things, but I love until it hurts. I give all of myself, and I’ll give all of myself to you. Oh, and don’t call me a baby just because I have my blanket that I’ve had since I was three.

Love always, and I’ll be waiting,

Joshua.

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